im not really klanadestin

maybe i am one of those “trust issues,” though i’m not even sure where it all began. perhaps, it was triggered by the unpleasant experience that pilled up over time. trust is difficult thing for me, unlike others who find it easy to just believe without needing extra validation and verification like i do. sometimes people get angry at me because i have difficulty trusting and label me as a complicated.

to the things that still remain or the one that are gone but i remember. 1 indeed, as people say, “sometimes we understand something in a mysterious way”. that is how i felt. you might never know that i was not trully interested in taking an internship ath the energy plant. despite how amazed others were by mine. but, through it, i met many people and few of them changed the way i see of my life.

“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle” – Ian Maclaren half of my life has been spent understanding how absurd life is until it changed everyone and forced them to rethink their habits: continuing the relevance, fixing the broken, and leaving the obsolete even though there will always be a denial that it can still be fixed. it seems like there is no simple thing that exists in the world.

“death is not the greatest loss in life. the greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live” – norman cousins i had a conversation with my secret world, where i added “gpt” (similar to chatgpt) to her last name because i’ve been learning a lot from her. after everything she went through, i asked, ‘do you sincerely accept everything, even though you never wanted to do that?’ she told me, ‘yeah, i do.